Anxiety and Why I Hate "Nevermind"

"Hey Bryn!"

"Yeah?"

"... Actually, nevermind."

Don't ever do this. I'm not joking.

I've explained to a lot of people how much this bothers me, and many seem to misinterpret it as a pet-peeve, a minor annoyance. This is not the case. To those of you without anxiety, this is something known as an anxiety trigger. Anxiety triggers are pretty self-explanatory in that they're just something that can cause anxiety to flare up, and often times they can literally come from anything. In this case, something as illogical and random as the word "Nevermind."

I would explain why this makes me feel anxious, but I feel that it would be more clear, and entertaining to just complete this conversation including any and all anxiety related thoughts.


"No, really, tell me." What is it? Why aren't they telling me? Did they realize it was something bad? Something I shouldn't know? Something that would bother me or offend me? They started telling me in the first place so it can't be that bad.

"Nah, it's fine. It's not important."

"Seriously, tell me." It's not fine. Why can't you just tell me? If it's unimportant, then there should be no harm in just telling me. There must be a reason to keep it from me.

"Jeez dude, it's no big deal."

"You started telling me in the first place, just finish it." It IS a big deal. You are withholding information that I would otherwise have known if you simply finished your sentence. Communication is key in all relationships, and you JUST BROKE THAT!

"Why do you want to know so badly?"

"Cause you started telling me already!" Is that really not obvious!? Why do you want to keep it from me so badly!?

"Fine. Jeez. I was just gonna ask if we had homework, but I remembered we did."

"Oh, okay." FUUUUUUUUUUUU-

Yeah, so there's a glimpse into the inner shenanigans of my brain. I've had points in which I've been unable to speak to a person without thinking back to a time when they did this, and I never found out what they were going to say. It is absolutely maddening.

So please, do NOT do this.